Having my first son at the age of 30 and having my second son literally a day before my 37th birthday was quite an interesting journey. I was that first time mom that....
women with multiple kids couldn't stand I'M SURE, lol. "I feel great!", "Nope no morning sickness.", "Nope no back pain", "Nope no swelling!" My c-section was even a pleasant experience. And I'm pretty sure I walked out the hospital with my new baby and abs back in place. Now my second time around........yeaaahhhh totally different experience. I carried my baby in a way that my back was just not happy. My back was just angry at the rest of my body my entire pregnancy. My feet would swell up. They say sleep as much as you can before the baby but I just couldn't do that properly either, talk about uncomfortable!!!! Half the time I couldn't breathe. I actually had to wear maternity clothes this time around. I went through more test than EVER!! After 35 years of age doctors treat you like a fragile piece of glass. My son measured big my entire pregnancy so even that was an added issue. Like hello his parents are 6'2!!! But at any rate.....Yeah I was pretty damn BIG!!! But fortunately, I had a healthy pregnancy.
I had another c-section performed and this is where "ISH GOT REAL!!" The recovery time took way longer and I had really bad nerve damage issues, that I feel was more painful than anything! I can't explain how they felt but if I had to try I would say my skin was PISSED!! Lol! Over time it got better thank god, but I did not expect that at all! I have even more numbness in my abdomen area and my scar isn't as pretty as the first one but I will get use to it.
Now that I have given you the logistics, lets get to the mushy part shall we!
I'm completely overjoyed to become a mother again. Your heart is just on overflow. I couldn't wait to see is little face. We had several 3D ultra sound photos but there is nothing like seeing your baby's face in person without the placenta getting in the way! Even though I was completely numb during the epidural, I could feel a weight being released from my body and I knew he was out. When heard him cry I was trying to move that damn big blue sheet so I could see, lol. Then FINALLY I saw the nurse start to clean him off and I just remember watching his little arms and legs flaring around saying to myself "I have another baby! Wow, like that's my baby!". Then OMG, when the nurse brought him over to me and put his face on my face I just closed my eyes and cried! He was so warm and his little cry.......(yeah I'm crying all over again at this moment). That love.....that feeling of just pure innocent love.....he was perfect! He was the best birthday gift I've ever received. My birthday became special all over again because I get to share it with my son. It's like I was reborn.
We named him Cayman (yes after the island. My first son's name is Croix, lol). Cayman Thomas Sutton. Born August 15th, 2017. Coming in at a whopping 8lbs, 11oz and was 22 1/2 inches long. He was just perfect! The love you have for your children is just so indescribable. It's the most purest form of unconditional love ever! I would imagine that it's just like the love that God explains that he has over his own children. My little gift from God.
- Teasa Lachelle